I CAN’T WAIT FOR TOMORROW.

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Published on: February 25, 2024 (10mo ago)

I have always wanted to accomplish great things tomorrow. And I can’t wait for tomorrow. It’s like if I could have a remote control, I would have skipped the moments to reach exactly to that time I’m desperately waiting for.

Yeah, I’m real desperate when trapped in that thing I can’t wait to see (although it is not here yet).

And you know what, what accumulates to that best day I’m hoping for, it is in fact the things which I will be doing every day, the things which I’m doing right now. And sadly, am just thinking and waiting for the products of the reactions without having the reactions themselves. This mindset of wanting to rush things out I believe it is impairing progress or stopping it completely as we are more fixated to the more theoretical things (the future) instead of the present (actual doing).

If I could get a sense of the present and work with the ‘’now’’ sense I think I could have done things differently.

I have tried to change that in the recent days. Developing the ability to wait. You know what of the mesmerizing realisation I’ve got to experience from this is that, -the days even went faster than the times when I was desperately wanting tomorrow to come today. What an irony!!

Maybe it's not only me but for everyone else with some ambitious goals. The thing which I have come to realise, and it helps is that the very first thing to manage this is to not accept that desire, that strong desire, for which is important I should ‘’make it come true soon’’. We need to abandon that. Because that is the one only true enemy for progress. But an enemy to what exactly? It is an enemy to clear vision.

If I could see Cleary, if we could have this perspective (different from that one where we are speedsters). we could have changed some of the ways of doing things. We have two different perspectives when we are rushing and when we are calm. A tiny activity to me I would consider it like “ooh, I have to do this too, when will I do the big part to make a bigger step forward” where for the later perspective I would realise that however unimportant something I might find, it is still a crucial part like learning multiplication tables to be able to solve quadratic equations in secondary school.

We are forgetting what real matters now, what to work on to make that tomorrow better and the other big side effect of that, we have a view that every second counts. So as a result, there is a lot of neglected things to be done. Example in doing the best in our relationships and our health in general.

For my side I must be willingly to leave this mentality of rushing. In fact, I’m still young. I’m still with full strength in doing a lot with all the time I have.

I had given myself a longer time for my projects to avoid this rush and just keep doing a great work instead of worrying about things which I haven't even done already. For some of my projects they take up to 10 years, I guess Mr “rushy man” won't have a chance on this. I have found this approach as an antidote for this “I can't wait for tomorrow” mindset. To give yourself longer time to the point that rushing things out doesn’t make a point. The point is to eliminate Mr “Rushy” mindset and have a clear vision to do things, to do things effectively.

Previously I wanted even in these days I should have my projects ready and running. But the reality in support of that (which I can't see at the moments of rush), I need cash, I need space. And forcing things is going against the reality. It is agony and stressful as I’m experiencing this every day. Instead, I was supposed to think of ways to make my projects work even if am limited with such resources. With this “longer time” version of doing things am cutting the “I need it tomorrow” and focusing on working and improving every day. Infact, I call the concept SMALL | EFFECTIVE | EVERYDAY, which I will talk about on the coming days.

It might take longer than you expect, you just have to work and wait.

_nyandamarcoz